Changes

It's been a while sinc I don't post here. Actually I have the feeling that everything might go down if I lose just a bit of my self-control. I'm not talking about emotions, I'm talking about daily life tasks, it's a domino effect; If I skip one everything can be become a mess.

Also, I don't know why this lack of will in doing my things is still existing. I think I should stop 'going on others flow" but instead doing the things I trully believe might be helpful for me. It sounds weird, I am doing what I basically always wanted to do, but I think these things work in your brain like when you buy something you really wanted to have, few moments later it will just feel normal for yourself. And then the problems come all over again.

I need to stop, think wisely about my actions and its consequences. Hanging out with the feeling that you accomplished your tasks is waaaaaayy better. Also, I wanna plan my day better and trully work for it, this is the reason I came and want to continue here.

The life in a developed country might sound amazing for someone who has never had this sort of experience, but as soon as you get used to it, you just start feeling how boring it might be. A land with no problems, everything just works, you don't need to fight or battle for your life goals or point of views regarding some specific subject -politics running hot in Brazil now, for example-. It's simply easier.